Sunday, December 4, 2011

Focus. I have none.

Thank the good Lord that my exam isn't until 3:00 tomorrow and that it should be fairly simple.  Because my mind is just not in study mode today.  I seriously have done nothing of productivity today except for picking up my room and vacuuming it because I thought a girl was coming over to study for the exam tomorrow and then she texted me saying she couldn't.

So I've sat here.

Listening to music half of my iTunes library.

Picking at my cuticles.  Something I never do.  Something that grosses me out when I see my mom do it.

Thinking about how tired I am.

So what I think I'm going to do is go to bed early, get up early, eat breakfast, go to the Financial Aid office to get another piece of my application sent off to DC, and then study for the exam.

That'll be plenty of time.

And even if it's not, it'll be higher quality, more effective studying than doing anything right now.

I feel like I've taken painkillers.  But I haven't.

I think my body just needs to decompress for a night.  Because even yesterday, while I was extremely happy, I didn't ever really feel relaxed.  Because I was thinking about Ryann, mostly.  I mean, I'm not sad or anything, not at all.  In fact, just thinking about the post I wrote yesterday and the conversations I had with various people gets me all giddy again.  So no, I'm not sad.  I just have a lot on my mind.  I know it probably sounds weird to put "happy" and "I have a lot on my mind" together, but really I am.  So there it is.

I'm just strangely sore and very out of it.

Hence the whole I'm going to bed thing.

Good night.

If you see my attention span floating around anywhere, send it back.  I still have three finals to get through before I'll let it go on vacation. :)

1 comment:

  1. I guess your attention span is out there having lunch with my attention span. *sigh* Why does it go on vacation like this every single semester???