All my life, I've been a neurotic student.
Kind of like my neurotic dog, Heidi.
High-stress.
Freaking out about every little assignment.
Heck, when I was in elementary school, I'd break down crying every Sunday night becaue I was so worried and freaked out about the week ahead.
Now, after (almost) two semesters of college...
I didn't do great on a test?
Oh well, I tried my best.
I forgot to do a homework assignment?
Oh well, I can't turn back the clock.
I threw away all my poetry journal stuff and then find out my teacher's collecting it at our final exam?
Oh well, go ahead and give me the zero.
And frankly, I think this is a good thing. :) That's not to say I'll no longer continue to try my hardest, because I will.
I just think I'm finally realizing that stressing myself out over things I can't change, at least regarding to school stuff, is kind of like inviting a vegetarian to a steakhouse - fruitless, pointless, and thoroughly disappointing. :)
***UPDATED at 6:00 pm***
Well this is surprising. I got an email back from my English professor that said, and I quote, "Don’t be too broken up about it. You were such a good class-responder, I should be able to find some points for you in that."
*jaw drops* I definitely, absolutely, positively did NOT see that coming, at all!!!
When my first love moved across the continent for college, I was given a greeting card that said "Don't worry about things you can't change. Now, your socks? Those, you should definitely worry about." Not all that profound... but it's true. Worrying is pointless unless you're going to use it as a catalyst for positive change.
ReplyDeleteThat's such a healthy attitude to have in college! What more can you do after you gave it all you had?
ReplyDeleteAwesome! Love the last part of this!
ReplyDeleteAnd to figure out how to live life stress me is wonderful. And it does wonders for your health.