When I thought I'd finally truly accepted how things are with me and Matt...
when our relationship seemed stronger than ever...
when I thought that maybe, just maybe, I was finally starting to get over him...
I find out that he's back with Simone.
Head? Meet desk.
He'll never learn.
I think the root reason of why this is messing with me so much is because I worry about him so much.
I am so protective of those I care about, and I worry about him the most because I care about him more than anyone in the world.
It kills me to see him get hurt, especially when I know he's so excited to be back together with a girl who always ends up treating him like crap.
I want to be excited for him. And part of me is.
But part of me also feels like I got kicked in the stomach repeatedly.
I don't even know what to think anymore.
If he really does marry her, then super for him. Because I mean what I've said all along:
His happiness means more to me than anything.
Yet somehow? Knowing and believing that isn't keeping me from feeling nauseous.