We as human beings differ greatly from each other. That's not news. But there are many things that can connect us, make us not feel so alone if we just take the time to really know people beyond the surface impression they give out because they're too scared to let people in. Making friends, the real, authentic, there when things are ugly kind of friends, means making yourself vulnerable, and vulnerability means you risk being hurt. So we keep things casual because casual is easy.
But here's the problem, as there's always a problem with the "easy" way: For a lot of people, with that casual acquaintance lifestyle comes the overwhelming fear that you don't matter. We all, whether we admit to it or not, just want to know that we are loved, that we are seen, that we are truly wanted for who we are and not what we can give.
Today, my sweet friend Lauren directed me to this blog post by Beth Moore. It's called "He's Got Your Back," and it directly addresses the question that nags many of us, and I know it's been hiding in the back of my mind for a long time: Does God really see me? Does He really see what I'm going through? And more importantly, is He really doing something about it? These are the kind of questions that haunt me on my bad days, when I'm just so tired of the pain and am begging God to just hurry up and help me already! I feel like maybe He's just so busy with everyone else, or I haven't been faithful enough that He's going to wait for me to get my act together before He answers my cries.
In our desperation, our pain, our frustration, we forget one very key trait of who God is. Y'all we serve a God that never, ever quits. Not for one second. Nothing we do or say will change His dedication to or love for us. He is always working to lead us in the right direction. Beth said it best, and most simply: "In your WAIT, He is at WORK."
Reading that post today reminded me of when Kyla told me that God isn't done with me yet, and the recent times when both she and Lauren have texted me to say that God has used me so much and is using me in big ways right now even though I find myself caught in the middle of a very tough situation. That's evidence of Him working right now; even though I can't see the resolution to this part of my story yet, He's using this piece of my journey to teach people, me and those who are witness to my life.
I told Lynn Tuesday night on the phone that I know He's not done with me yet because I've survived things beyond any medical explanation. That seems like reason enough, but then one of the kind people from Chris's church who responded to my post in their online community left this verse at the end of his comment, and it was such a great reminder of the Truth that has been shown to me so many times as of late.
Philippians 1:6 "being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
He will finish the work He has begun. That's a statement, not a question. He will finish what He has started, in me, in you, in the person in your life who seems to be beyond all hope. Until the day God brings you home, I pray that you take comfort in knowing that He is at work, redeeming and saving to move you towards the perfect, holy creation you were meant to be from the beginning.
No matter what this broken, wicked, sinful world may tell you some days, you are not forgotten. Not for a second. Whether you're a Christian or not, He sees you. And He is mighty to save.