Sometimes, my body just won't cooperate.
Pain goes from bad to worse and from keeping me up until 4 am to making me unable to handle being awake.
But when the pain is as bad as it was for most of today, sleep is a gift. Sleep is a healer, the only feasible escape from pain that puts me in tears.
I forced myself to wake up before 5:00 because the Wolfpack were playing in a basketball tournament in Puerto Rico, and I do my best not to miss a game. Plus, I needed to force myself up if I could take it because I need to sleep tonight. I love Wolfpack basketball, and the game went so well that I was able to stop thinking about my headache at points.
Then, some well-timed texts and emails from friends made me laugh and smile and let me escape from all the stress and bad stuff that's right in front of me for just a little bit longer.
Then, two TV shows I love came on, and I got to leave this world entirely for a fictional world that doesn't involve me. I always do better when I don't have to think about myself as much as I have the past few days.
All of these escapes today were just the refresher I needed. Things are only going to get faster and more difficult and more complicated from now until December 10th, so I needed the break to recharge. On to tomorrow.