Stronger

Well, as a random aside, that whole gum tissue removal thing didn't hurt nearly as bad as I expected it to, and the pain totally went away by dinnertime tonight.  So yeah, I'm happy.  Dr. Rankin said my gums are going to look pretty red for a few days, but I'm already pleased with how much better my smile looks with that extra tissue removed.  Maybe I'll post some pictures after the redness goes away.  The fun part was the numbing stuff they put on my gums beforehand; it made all of the teeth in the front of my mouth and my lips go numb, too.  It felt cool, but it was aggravating that I couldn't stop drooling or talk normally for a few hours.  And I FINALLY got my permanent retainer in, so I don't have to wear any other retainers anymore. Yay for that.

I took a four hour nap this afternoon when I got home, which felt awesome.  After that, I basically did absolutely nothing of importance.

I titled this post "Stronger," though, because a totally sweet girlfriend of mine emailed me a link to a song today.  She said she heard it on the radio, and despite not even liking country music, she had to listen to it all the way through because it made her think of me.  These are the friends I need to focus on.  I am so loved, not just by God, but also by so many kind, loving, wonderful people that He has put in my life in the craziest ways.  No selfish boys can take that away from me.

So to the one boy in particular, the one who broke my heart, this one's for you.  I'm done.  This is the last time I'll be talking about you on this blog because the way you treated me doesn't deserve another second of my time.



And I'm done hopin' that we could work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin' my wheels,
lettin' you drag my heart around.
And ohhh, and I'm done thinkin' that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.

I'm moving on to the people who respect my heart.  You don't get that kind of power over me, not anymore.   You may not see it, but I'm worth more than that.