Naomi

Oh boy.

Church made me cry today.

It was all about Naomi and Ruth and how dedicated Ruth was to Naomi and how that resembles Jesus's dedication to us, but that wasn't what made me cry.

What made me cry was how Naomi became so bitter when she felt like her life was falling apart. And all I could think was I'm Naomi right now.

I don't want to be Naomi.

I don't like being bitter.

I know that God is good and God provides and God loves me more than I can ever comprehend, but I am sad and frustrated and a little bit mad and I can't pretend I'm not. Because pretending takes energy that I don't have.

Jesus, help me.