Yeah, this song does that to me. (Thanks, Laura A. for sending it!)
Every time he goes, she dies
Every time she comes, she criesHe was her long, bright future
In the middle of a wrong, dark road
He loved her, but he wasn't too sure
If he could return the love she showed
When she said, my love extends
Beyond the realm of being friends
He kissed her head
And quietly he said
It's not that you're not beautiful, you're just not beautiful to me
She said, how beautiful do I have to be?
When I look in the mirror, you're the only thing I see
And I have loved you beautifully
Well, ten thousand tears passed by
But she never let him see her cry
And he called up down one night
He said, let's get in the car and just drive
He talked a lot about loneliness
But why, she didn't know
And some song about Memphis
Was playing on the radio
She said, let's stop the car and slow dance
Won't you just give me a chance?
He took her hand
And hoped she'd understand
It's not that you're not beautiful, you're just not beautiful to me
She said, how beautiful do I have to be?
When I look in the mirror, you're the only thing I see
And I have loved you beautifully
Well, she'll burn that bridge
And build a house
And swallow the smoke in her mouth
She'll feel the burn
And then make the choice
To put the fire in her voice
It's not that you're not beautiful, you're just not beautiful to me
She said, how beautiful do I have to be?
When I look in the mirror, you're the only thing I see
And I have loved you beautifully
This is who I am. After all the times I've been hurt by guys who abused the fact that I loved them deeply (as a friend or otherwise), after 3 years of pretty much begging Matt to love me the way I love him, I'm finally realizing the truth: Second to God, I have to love myself before anyone else. I have to take care of me. I can't rely on anyone else to give me the happiness that I can only find in my relationship with God.
Also, I can't change myself and think that some man will love me for it if he didn't love me to start with. If you change yourself for someone, you'll only end up disappointed because that person will never be happy, no matter what changes you make. There is a man out there who will love me exactly the way that I am! Matt's told me I'm beautiful, he's just not attracted to me. There is a man out there who will not just think I'm beautiful, but be madly in love with me. God gave me the desire to be a wife and a mother, and He WILL fulfill those desires. I just have to get it through my thick, stubborn head that I have to WAIT FOR IT.
Listen to the song! :)
Look at you!! Good for you!!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad I was able to send it to you...I knew you would love it!
Someday you will find someone, I am so sure of that. You are sweet and loyal and kind and funny and all around pretty awesome:), and someone will recognize that and will not only think you're all that and more, but they will be in love with you.
ReplyDeleteI struggle with feeling alone and having a desire for a relationship/family frequently, and I do pray for patience that the right one will come along. Something that helps me also is to pray not only that he will come, but that if it'll be a while, that God will use that time to put both of us through situations and experiences that are necessary for us to go through so we'll be a perfect fit. Like maybe the right guy (whether I know him or not) is in a relationship, but that relationship is something that he'll learn from and will make him better prepared for me in time. Helps me with perspective, I guess.
ReplyDeleteDid that make any sense at all?? Haha.